In my Head

I have been for a while now (almost an year) trying to lose weight. Instead I have gained more. There have been many reasons for that. I will try and uncover them for my own mental peace.

Let me start my telling you that I just did a binge eating weekend. I had all my favourites which were all fatty foods high in sugar and sodium. I also smoked and drank. But, something happened this time which hadn't happened before in the past year. I got tired of smoking, drinking and eating. I felt disgusted at the sight of a smoke (I was a heavy/chain smoker). I felt irritated when I smelt alcohol (I never did like drinking too much anyway). And, the best part my body and brain kept craving fresh green vegetables and beautifully ripe fruits. After three days of binge eating I just gave up and picked up a yummy drink of mint, celery and coriander juice. Followed by salads and fresh vegetable soup.

And what do you know I bump into this docu-film today only. Which only strengthens my belief, that it is time to go back to being myself. This fat woman I see in the mirror everyday is not me. I was never this unhealthy with chronic illnesses and pain.

Hungry for Change showed how there are so many bad beliefs that have been instilled in us due to a lot of reasons. To be honest watch it for better information.

http://www.hungryforchange.tv

But, it did change the way I have been thinking. Here is to change.

(originally written on 31/03/13)